Ugly.

I think that's healthy, though.

So Garry is on facebook. He is listed as in a relationship with Catherine Reeser. One guess who that is. Yeah. The girl he told me I had 'nothing to worry about.' He told me that she was 'skinny like a boy and had a unibrow.' The kicker is that his anniversary is in OCTOBER!!!! October!

I didn't think it was possible to hate someone as much as I hate him right now. I keep having nightmares of his face. I wake up crying. I go to sleep crying. Hell, I'm crying now.

Call me naive. I thought he was a good guy. I thought he loved me. I really believed that we were going to get married, we were going to be a family. I gave up SO MUCH for him.

And, again, I have to label him as a coward. I mean... since October?! I gave him so many opportunities to tell me what was going on. I asked him if he was seeing someone else. ALWAYS the answer was no. No. No. Stop being paranoid. You're being insecure.

He made me feel like there was something wrong with me.

And let me tell you something. There is NOTHING wrong with me. I'm gorgeous. Smart. Funny. Kind. Compassionate. GORGEOUS. There is nothing ugly about me, inside or out.

I feel like need to get this out of my system, once and for all.

YOU are ugly, Garry Neill. YOU are the ugly one. Your face is ugly, you're sleeping with ugly. Your mind is ugly. And your lying, cheating, black heart is UGLY!

And every day I'm told that I'm loved, and beautiful, and worthwhile. Everyday someone tells me I'm too good for you. And they're right.